This is the artwork that set the tone for my current collection of pieces, and inspired me to look deeper into my art. When I first sketched this piece, its purpose was not to inspire me to overcome my anxiety, but to make others and myself laugh. I rejected the possibility that there could be any other meaning to my art other than its purpose of enjoyment.
Upon completing this piece, I wrote pages of words to myself. I wanted to know why I rejected putting my feelings into my artworks so much. I concluded it was because I didn't want my art to hold all of my negative feelings. I wanted to feel relieved both while I was working on it, and when I gazed at the final product.
A couple months later and a lot more writing led me to realize that there was another way. Coping mechanisms don't have to be a conglomerate of disposed negative energy, but a vessel to take my negative energy and turn it into something comedic and relieving to look at. I found that due to my competitive nature, I thrive off of wanting to be as good and happy as everyone else, and it inspires me to do better for myself. So, after this sculpture, I started formulating each of my specialized role models.
Upon completing this piece, I wrote pages of words to myself. I wanted to know why I rejected putting my feelings into my artworks so much. I concluded it was because I didn't want my art to hold all of my negative feelings. I wanted to feel relieved both while I was working on it, and when I gazed at the final product.
A couple months later and a lot more writing led me to realize that there was another way. Coping mechanisms don't have to be a conglomerate of disposed negative energy, but a vessel to take my negative energy and turn it into something comedic and relieving to look at. I found that due to my competitive nature, I thrive off of wanting to be as good and happy as everyone else, and it inspires me to do better for myself. So, after this sculpture, I started formulating each of my specialized role models.